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Story: Paradox’s Despair – Chapter 19


Fluttershy looked outside; it was beautiful with the sun shining and the birds singing. The castle in Canterlot had the best views of everything, even when Discord wanted the horizon to show pinstripes and argyles in the sky. She sighed deeply as she went to sit back down to work on her knitting.

“Mom?” A low whisper came from the adjacent room.

Fluttershy got up quickly and walked into the darkened room. “Yes Dox? You need me?”

“Yes, am I still a monster?”

“You’re my unique child, and I love you.” She whispered.

He sat up to look at her as he flapped his beautiful blue wings. “I don’t think you know what I am. I’m horrible. I’m a monster. Monster.” He grabbed one of his wings and started to tear his feathers out one by one.

Fluttershy ran to him. “No! Don’t do that… Those are your wings, they are beautiful. Stop it Dox, please!!” She put her hooves in between his paws and his wings. He scratched her and she gasped pulling away.

Paradox stopped when he saw he had harmed his mother and he suddenly curled around himself. “See… I am a monster.” He started to cry and shake.

Fluttershy recovered quickly, walking up and slowly lying down next to him as she put her soft wing over his shaking body. He was twice her size but she still said, “No…no… You are my sweet little boy… my little boy. I love you. Please don’t cry, don’t cry…”

My sweet little boy.
My sweet little boy.

There was a noise in the other room and hoof steps were heard. Fluttershy looked up from trying to comfort Paradox and her eyes widened at seeing her daughter Lilly walk into the dark room.

“Lilly!” Fluttershy got up. “Where have you been? What are you doing here?”

“Hello Mom. I have missed you. How is Paradox?” Lilly’s eyes were shining slightly. Fluttershy hadn’t seen her in almost a year.

“Dox had just tried to pull out his feathers, so he is the same.” She held up her hoof and showed Lilly what he had done to her. Lilly nodded and leaned down and kissed her mother’s hoof. The scratches started to heal instantly.

“I have a plan Mom, has Dad been around?”

Fluttershy sighed and looked at a castle spire across the way. “He has been distant, he gives me his love, but he is hurting inside. I can sense it.”

Lilly approached Paradox he looked up at her without moving, his mane was long and unruly his eyes were sunken in and shallow looking. It was as if he had given up, Lilly stepped around the feathers that he had just torn from his wings. “Look at you; you are nothing but a pitiful heap of worthlessness.” She said to him bitterly. “How can I call you my brother? We are supposed to be equals. You are supposed to protect me; not the opposite!”

Paradox Stares into space

Paradox just watched her; his eyes were dim and seemed to show nothing but loss.

Fluttershy went to Lilly, “Please Lilly, don’t make him feel worse.”

Lilly looked at her mother. “It’s ok. Let me do this. Please Mom, if you don’t want to see me do this you can wait in the other room.”

Fluttershy placed her hoof on her lips and just sat down to watch Lilly.

Lilly turned back to Paradox. “You are older than me by five minutes, Dad saw you first before he fainted. Our Dad, the Spirit of Chaos; fainted… he was so happy that you were born. He loves us, he loves you… You know this.”

Paradox didn’t say anything as he looked up at his sister, slowly blinking his dull blue eyes.lillyhome

“You used to protect me Paradox. You would come to me when I was sad.” She moved her long tail over to her brother’s muzzle. “You’d even bite Aunt Misery’s tail when you thought she was going to hurt me. She didn’t of course.”

“That was kind of funny.” He finally said softly.

“Of course it was.” Lilly looked at him sternly. She then looked at Fluttershy. “Mom, can you get Dad. Please?”

Fluttershy looked at her children reluctantly. “I will, don’t hurt your brother Lilly.”

“I will not hurt Paradox.” Lilly nodded.

Fluttershy spread her wings and flew out the window to fly to the spire across the courtyard of Canterlot Castle. “I’ll be back.”

Lilly nodded to her mother and then turned back to Paradox. “I am a monster. If there ever was a monster. I am one.” Her mane started to glow deeply. Her eyes started to glow a deep crimson that seemed to radiate within.

Paradox sat up as he looked at his sister. “What makes you say that?”

“We… are all monsters Paradox. You, me, Dad, Mom, our aunts, our uncle and our little sister. We are all monsters. It may come as a shock, but… it is true. We are… all monsters.”

His eyes widened as he stared at his sister, her soft red coat was glowing as she revealed the truth. “You… mean…”

“I mean… that you are not alone, you are a monster, but not all monsters are evil. You are not evil Dox. You never have been; you never will be. I, on the other hoof… am evil.”

“No, you are not!” Discord walked in, grabbed Lilly and hugged her.

“Dad…” Lilly gasped as her father put his paw and claw around to pull her in a comforting hug.hugsdiscord

“Never say that you are evil.” Discord muttered as he let his daughter go to look at her. “You are my little LillyRose. My double flower.” He sniffled as a tear started to roll down his cheek.

Paradox slowly got up off the bed he had been in and took a step. Lilly gasped at the fact that Dox was moving, something he hadn’t done in a while. “Sister…”

Lilly moved away from Discord as she trotted to her brother quickly as he took another step towards them. “Do you understand what I have told you?” She asked as he placed his paws on her supporting back.

Paradox nodded as tears rolled down his cheeks. “Yes, Lilly. Thank you… You have opened my eyes. I’m a monster, but I am not an evil monster. I shouldn’t dwell on it.”

“Yes…” Lilly said softly to her brother, tears started to form in her eyes and she smiled lightly. “You are my only brother; I do not want to lose you to despair.”


Fluttershy put her hooves to her mouth as she watched Paradox holding onto Lilly. Her eyes were filled with tears as her mane fell slightly in front of her face. “That is what I have been trying to tell you, my Doxy.”

Discord watched as he moved towards his children. “There will be some time to heal. Paradox, will you be okay? You have been on the edge of despair for over two years. I have only seen one other descend into despair before, but he was never able to escape its poisonous grip…” Discord stopped and wiped a tear that was threatening to fall from his eyes.

“It warped him, consumed him like a flame that caused his body to twist and change. It made him bitter and vile.” Fluttershy finished for Discord as she leaned against him. Discord hugged and looked at her. “I never want that to happen to you Dox.” She sniffled as she put her head against Discord’s chest.

Lilly blinked as she looked at her parents and her ears suddenly went up. “You… are talking about our uncle Sorrow.” *note

Discord made a low growl at the name and frowned. “It is alright.” Fluttershy said to him softly. “You know he is no longer around.”

“Even from beyond he tries to destroy my family.” Discord muttered. “That is in the past though… Come here Lilly and Dox.” He hugged them both and he couldn’t stop from crying; one feeling better and the other finally home. “My family… together again… Wait until Scarlet Grace finds out…”

Lilly wiped her eyes and looked at her family. “I’m sorry I left… I just… I needed to help Doxy…”

“You missed Grace’s wedding.” Fluttershy said.

“She’s married?” Lilly was shocked.

“Yeah, and we’ll be grandparents soon.” Fluttershy smirked as she leaned on Discord.

Lilly shook her head, “I came back to a lot of changes.”

“Yes,” Discord said. “Except… you will still have a guard assigned to you.”

“I don’t need a guard Dad.” Lilly muttered.


* Read Her Butterflies

Paradox’s Despair – Interlude

It took a couple months after Lilly left that things went back to fairly normal. Scarlet Grace had gotten married at the castle, it was a small ceremony and Fluttershy cried a lot; seeing their youngest get married even brought a tear to Discord’s eye. Twilight showed up after reporting that Celestia had took a turn for the worse in the past week and she wasn’t sure how she could make her better. Paradox had started to just go into small spells of just staring off into space and rocking himself back and forth on his bed. Discord had started brooding in the throne room, waiting for any news of Lilly.

Paradox Stares into space
Paradox stares into space
Discord broods


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Story: Paradox’s Despair – Chapter 18


Lilly felt her wings grow tired as she flew, she never flew this far before. Most of the times she used her magic to get her from one point to another and usually she liked showing off the fact that she knew more spells than Paradox did. She was crying when she had left the castle and she felt like her heart was being torn in half followed by loss and emptiness spreading over her whole entire body.

She flew towards the Crystal Mountains and she was determined to get to them that day and she faltered when her wings weakened slightly so she flew down towards a waterfall that she saw below her. When she landed she felt all her emotions flood around her as she fell down onto the damp grass. “I… cannot do this.”

“Do what?” A voice asked from the water.

Lilly looked up and saw a pony looking at her from the water. The pony blinked at her curiously and suddenly disappeared below the water. Lilly blinked and crawled to the edge of the water and looked for the pony. “Hello?”

“Hello?” The voice echoed from down the stream.

Lilly stood up slowly and looked down the stream trying to see the pony before. “Who are you? Where are you?”

“Hello?” A voice said right next to Lilly. Lilly looked back down to the stream and saw the pony she saw before in the water her mane looked very damp and was red and her coat was orange with strange iridescent colors that shined as she moved in the sun light in certain ways . The pony smiled up at her. “What are you?”

Lilly backed away from the water. “Come out of the water and talk to me.”

“That is impossible. What are you? I have seen a lot of ponies here, but you… you are different. I don’t talk to any other ponies, but you made me very curious.” The pony said as it looked at Lilly curiously.

“What do you mean impossible, just step out of the water.” Lilly flapped her wings in irritation.

“No can do.” The pony whispered as she slowly sank back down into the water. “I am beginning to think I should have kept my mouth shut.”

“Wait, I’m sorry. I’m not a pony.” Lilly said suddenly.

The pony in the water was just looking at her. She put her muzzle up slowly. “Not a pony? I knew it. What is she then?”

Lilly was thinking the same thing. “I’m a draconequus. What are you?”

kelpie“I’m a kelpie.” The pony in the water said proudly. “I come from a long lineage of kelpies. I cannot live out of the water though, my great, great, great, great, great… so many greats grandfather was able to come out of the water, but now we kelpies cannot.” She suddenly moved as her tail came up out of the water and made a splash.

“A kelpie…” Lilly mused. “How long have you been here? Wherever here is.”

The kelpie sunk below the surface of the water while still watching Lilly. Lilly saw her swim in the clear water and she actually looked like a fish, when she resurfaced she was a closer to the waterfall. “I have been here as long as the waterfall has been here.” She then swam back to Lilly. “Come into the water… It is nice.”

“No thank you.” Lilly said as she walked away from the water’s edge.

The kelpie lifted slightly out of the water and looked at her. “Why won’t you swim with me? I just want to hold you down so you can live with me forever.”

“Sorry, not interested.” Lilly growled.

“I love you though. You have pretty horns on your head and your long tail reminds me of a dragon.” The kelpie pouted.

“No.” Lilly said as she spread out her wings.

“Oh! Wings!” The kelpie looked at them and suddenly dived back down into the water then came back up and spit water toward Lilly. “Come swim before leaving… It will relax you; the water is nice and warm.”

“Sorry, but I am leaving.” Lilly jumped up into the sky and flew off.

“I shouldn’t have told her I wanted to drown her.” The kelpie muttered and dived back into the clear water.

Lilly shook her head as she flapped her wings tiredly; she changed her trajectory as she flew more towards the northwest where she had heard about gryphons. She paused in midair though when she remembered her mother telling her about a gryphon that yelled at her for no reason than just being in the way. She decided to just fly that way and see what happened when she got there. “I need to rest though, and I’m hungry.” She murmured to herself.

Story: Paradox’s Despair – Chapter 17


Discord leaned on his throne and he listened to several different complaints and several other things that he really found quite tedious and boring. He sat up slightly when he noticed that Lilly’s guard was next to have an audience with him.listens

“What are you doing here? Aren’t you supposed to be watching over my daughter?” Discord asked.

Zero gulped and saluted Discord. “Yes sir… but… um Sir. I…”zerosalute

Discord frowned at the guard. “What is it? Spit it out.”

“Lady Chaos has a message for you.” Zero’s legs were shaking so much that he felt like he might collapse.

“Yes?” Discord was getting impatient.

“She said: Good Bye.” Zero closed his eyes and cringed ready for anything violent to befall him. When nothing happened he opened his eyes slowly.

Discord sat back in his throne arching one of his eyebrows. He sat up again as he looked at Zero and he rubbed his goatee with his claw slowly. He then looked at the captain of the guards. “I won’t be taking any more meetings today.”

“Sir?” The Captain said. “We have been here for only an hour.”

Discord growled at the Captain. “My daughter ran away… I think I can cancel meetings for the day.”

“Yes sir.” The Captain saluted. Zero started to back out of the throne room.

“You! Don’t leave.” Discord growled at him and Zero stopped in his tracks.

Discord got up from the throne and walked over to Lilly’s guard. “Tell me what she said.” He demanded. “Did she say where she was going? What was she doing before she left?”

Zero gulped as Discord approached him and was suddenly demanding answers from him that he didn’t have the answer to. “I… Sir… I’m… She was… I…” He stuttered.

“Calm down.”

Discord put his finger on Zero’s muzzle. “Calm down.”

Zero blinked as all his thoughts that were jumbled before became organized. “What happened?”

“You are about to tell me what happened with LillyRose.” Discord muttered.

“Yes Sir.” He saluted. “Lady Chaos left the dining room this morning and I followed her she was muttering something about being dragged down into despair with her brother and she didn’t want to be. She had turned to me and she was crying. She told me to inform you and her mother Good Bye. She spread her wings in the southwest courtyard and flew north.” Zero blinked in amazement at remembering everything.

Discord frowned with the news. “You are dismissed.”

“Sir?” Zero said. “What do I do?”

“When Lilly returns you will be her guard again, but until then… consider it a vacation. With little or no pay.” Discord grumbled.

Zero nodded and slowly left the throne room.

Discord extended his wings, snapped his fingers disappeared and reappeared outside the castle. He looked around the southwest courtyard and flew up into the sky. He sighed as  he looked in the northerly direction all he saw was the Crystal Mountains in the distance. He had no idea how he would begin the search for Lilly; he slowly landed back on the ground taking in a deep breath, he had to tell Fluttershy. He placed his paw on his muzzle. “Oh my double flower. You didn’t have to run away.”

Story: Paradox’s Despair – Chapter 16


Paradox curled up in a ball, he had pulled the pillows around him and cried deeply as he felt like his whole life was shattering around him at that moment.

Fluttershy had landed outside of his door her own guard stood outside near the door. Fluttershy walked in closing the door to see him curled up crying. “Doxy? What is wrong?”

He looked up at his mother and his whole body had seemed drained of color. “It’s happened Mom, don’t you feel it? The emptiness…”

Fluttershy shook her head as she looked at him. “I don’t know what…” Paradox covered his head with the pillow.

drowningunderpillow“I’m drowning.” He said in a muffled voice. “And Lilly is gone. I can feel it.”

“No, Lilly is here, she just was up here with you… wasn’t she?” Fluttershy looked around.

He peered out from under the pillows. “No… she didn’t see me this morning.”

“Oh no.” Fluttershy said as she felt her heart tighten in her chest. “I have to tell your father.”

Paradox reached out and held his mother’s hoof. “Not yet Mom… I can’t be alone. Please stay with me.”


“Okay Doxy.” She leaned against him putting her wing over him.

Story: Paradox’s Despair – Chapter 14-15

14.pancakepokeLilly was brooding at the large table as she sat at the end of it. It was breakfast time and she poked at her pancakes that the chef in the castle kitchen had made. Her guard stood close by and she was surprised that he had found her quarters last night and met her when she awoke the next morning when she had opened the door.

She pushed the plate with her breakfast away from her and looked up at her guard. “Hey, you want something to eat?” She asked him.

Zero looked at her. “No, thank you Lady Chaos.” He replied just as his stomach growled.

Lilly snickered. “Just eat this, I command you to.” She clicked her tongue and the plate hovered in front of his face then slowly landed on the table.

Zero sighed as he went over to the table and ate the pancakes that Lilly commanded him to eat. It was rather good though and he was hungry.

Lilly just put her elbows on the table and yawned as she looked at the empty seats across from her where her parents should be sitting. She was about to push away from the table and leave when Fluttershy came trotting into the room giggling, followed by Discord walking after her trying to grab at her tail.

Fluttershy stopped when she noticed Lilly sitting looking at her and Discord didn’t stop as fast as he tripped over his wife and used his magic to stop himself from completely falling over as he floated on his back. Fluttershy shook her body and flapped her wings slightly as she righted herself better. “Hi Lilly.” She said shyly.

Discord smirked at Lilly. “Hello my double flower.” He stopped floating and stood up easily.

“Mom, Dad… I wanted to talk to you last night but… your guards wouldn’t let me in your room.” Lilly crossed her arms.

“Oh, yes… um.” Fluttershy blushed.

“Sorry Lilly, I didn’t know you wanted to talk last night.” Discord said softly as he pulled a chair out for Fluttershy to sit. “We can talk now.”

Lilly gave her guard a stern look. Zero blinked at her in shock but then took the hint and left the room quickly. She looked at Fluttershy and Discord. “I’m leaving.”

“What!?” Fluttershy said. “What is wrong Lilly?”

“What are you saying Lilly?” Discord frowned.

“I’m going to find my destiny… I need to find out why I am sad… I want to find out why Paradox thinks he is a monster. I am not finding the solution here. So… I am leaving.” She stared at them and held her breath without realizing it.

Fluttershy kept staring at her daughter and she started to breath in shallow gasps. Discord stared at Lilly then glanced at his wife and placed his paw on her back and started to rub her softly. “Relax Fluttershy, breath regular.” He frowned at Lilly and started to shake his head. “No… You cannot go.”

“You cannot force me to stay.” She growled at him. “I don’t think you are very fair, if it was Paradox you’d let him leave.”

“Not in the state he is in now!” Discord growled back. “There is too much going on in our lives to have you leave right now.”

argumentLilly stared at her father for a long amount of time and he stared back. Fluttershy just watched them both back and forth. “Um…” she said softly and Lilly blinked and looked at her mother. Discord smirked as if he knew that he won the stare off.

“Sorry Mom.” Lilly said as she sighed deeply. “I’m going to go see Dox.” She trotted out of the room.

Fluttershy looked at Discord. “Why are you treating her like she is a foal?”

“To me she will always be my little double flower. I don’t want her to grow up so fast.” He sighed.


leavingLilly trotted quickly along the corridor and Zero tried hard to keep up with her. She was sniffling as she went; he noticed she wasn’t heading towards her brother’s tower. “I’m leaving anyway; I cannot watch Dox fall into despair… I cannot be dragged down with him.” She whispered and suddenly stopped as they reached a courtyard and turned around to look at her guard.

Zero stopped and blinked at her. “Lady Chaos?” He said as he looked at her; her crimson eyes had tears in them.

Tell my parents good bye for me.
Tell my parents good bye for me.

She let out a deep breath. “Tell my parents Good Bye for me.”

“My Lady?” He asked again, but stepped back when she spread her wings and jumped up into the air and flew off.

Story: Paradox’s Despair – Chapter 13 (naughty) NC-17

Discord moved the sun down and grinned at how simple it was. He then looked at Fluttershy who was watching him command the sun, he made it do a little loop around and finally set, she shook her head at him. She was lounging on her side on the large bed in their bedroom in one of the castle towers. He couldn’t help but admire her as he jumped on the bed. “My Queen Fluttershy.” He whispered as he snuggled up against her. “What is your pleasure?”

Fluttershy felt her cheeks start to burn as she wiggled against him. “Oh, you are just teasing me now.”

He placed his paw on his chest. “I never tease you. I’d rather please you.” He leaned down and kissed her softly as he curled up around her; he rubbed his claw over her flank and her cutie mark. “It’s our first night here… I say we have some fun.”

Fluttershy blushed as he rubbed her flank. “What if… Um… the guards hear us?” She asked.

Discord chuckled. “I don’t care if they do. You recall my love, that I’m an exhibitionist. They could watch for all I care, maybe they will learn something.”

“Um, I don’t want them to watch.” She whispered.

He chuckled. “It’s okay, I won’t allow them to watch, and they cannot hear us. At least I don’t think they can.”

Fluttershy blushed deeply. “Can you make sure?”

“My love, don’t you worry, they already know we’re married…” He paused when she gave him a pouting face. “Okay I’ll make sure.”

He snapped his fingers and disappeared to reappear outside the room. He saw two guards standing there. “Make sure we aren’t disturbed and don’t listen.” they both nodded curtly. “If you hear a small pony moaning in pleasure ignore it, more than likely it is my wife.” He grinned as he reappeared in their room again. “They cannot hear you.” He reassured Fluttershy as he slowly crawled into the bed again.

She sighed as she relaxed when he slowly curled up around her again. “Thanks for making sure.”

“My pleasure.” He whispered as he nibbled along her neck and rubbed his paw over her body.

“Oh…” she seemed to melt under his attention. Her wings fluttered as he moved his paw over her back and down across her flanks.

He moved his claw over her shoulder as he moved his body over her. “I cannot ever get enough of you.” He whispered as he pushed her tail to the side with his paw.

She looked back at him as he leaned over her. “I don’t know what I would have done without you.” she said softly.

He rubbed himself up along her hot, damp entrance as he leaned down and kissed her. He pushed his tongue in her mouth as they kissed deeply at the same time he pushed himself into her. Their bodies moved in synch with one another they each knew what the other needed and they didn’t mind the knowledge.

Fluttershy moaned out when their kiss ended and he moved his hips against her as he gripped her shoulders. “Oh, yes my love.” He encouraged as he thrust into her harder.

“Oh please, Discord.” Fluttershy panted out loudly as she felt her orgasm over take her. “Oh yes!”

He felt her flow over his need and he kept the pace up as he moved in and out of her like a piston. “So silky smooth so tight and oh, Fluttershy.” He moaned lustfully when he felt her tighten around him.

“Discord, please…” she shuddered as her wings quivered with another orgasm.

Discord gritted his teeth as he felt her pleasure flow around him again and he couldn’t hold back any longer. With a deep grunt he pushed in deeply and released himself into her, spilling fourth his seed up against her cervix filling her up. “You feel so good…” He moaned as he bucked up into her letting her muscles flutter and milk him of all his desire.

Reluctantly he pulled from her and he kissed along her neck as she snuggled up against him. “That felt wonderful.” Fluttershy whispered.

“You felt wonderful.” He whispered back as he rubbed her shoulders with his paw and claw. “Thank you for trying to sit with me today in the throne room.”

“Oh, I’m sorry that I could not stay longer. All that attention on me… scares me.” She blushed.

“While I am with you, you shouldn’t have any fear. I will not let anyone harm my beautiful queen.” He whispered as he curled around her protectively. He then grinned as a thought occurred to him and he started to laugh softly.
afterloveFluttershy knew better than to ask but she had to. “Why are you laughing?”

He looked her in the eyes. “Let’s go down to the throne room right now.”

She blinked. “Why? Its night time, no one will be there.”

“I know.” He grinned evilly and winked at her.

Fluttershy’s eyes widened as she blushed at his suggestion. “I… um… Okay.” She said.

Discord looked at her in shock. “Did you just say okay?”

Fluttershy nodded. “Yes.”

“Okay then,” He sat up in the bed picked her up and with a snap of his fingers they disappeared.

The throne room was dark and quiet as Discord and Fluttershy appeared in it. He put her down as he watched her. “It is quiet in here…” She murmured as she walked up to the thrones. She looked at his throne smiled and looked at him as he watched her. “How long have you had this throne?”

Discord was puzzled by the question. “Several centuries, why?”

Fluttershy grinned as she put her hooves on it and started to rub the wood slowly. “The wood is nice and hard on it.” She leaned against it and then looked over her shoulder at him. “Is it a comfortable throne?”

He was biting is lower lip as he watched her rub against his throne. “It’s very comfortable.” He muttered as he walked up to her slowly.

“Hmm, I don’t know.” Fluttershy said as she climbed up on the throne and started to rub the back of it with her hooves. “The wood is sure hard here too.”

Discord smirked as he reached out and placed his claw on her hip. “You want to feel some hard wood?” He asked as he pulled her to him. “I have some right here for you.”

She made a small squeak as he rubbed his arousal against her already damp folds. “Oh yes, that feels pretty hard to me.” She moaned.

“Yes… It’s hard and needs some polishing.” He said as he moved his arousal up slipping it slowly into her entrance and started to make love to her again as she leaned against his throne.

Fluttershy gasped as he pushed in her as she shuddered in pleasure. “Oh, yes…” She moaned loudly.

Discord gripped her tightly as he pushed into her deeply. “You deliberately wanted to do this.” He panted.

“Ooh Discord. Of course I did.” She moaned out when he pushed into her hard. She rested her cheek against the back of his throne as he increased his thrusts.

He huffed in pleasure as they mated on his throne. “Oh. I’m going to…” He pushed into her deeply as he released himself into her again.

Story: Paradox’s Despair – Chapter 12


Two guards stood outside Paradox’s room at attention looking forward with no emotion. One an earth pony the other a unicorn.

“There is a way to make you happy again.” Lilly said, “I’m going to make you happy.”

“How?” Paradox asked as he sat looking at the food that Lilly brought him.

“I don’t know yet.” she said as she looked at her hooves. “We moved to this great looking castle and there are many other ponies here in Canterlot and you choose to hide in this room.”

“Only because you have found your inner power, you’re Lady Chaos.” Paradox muttered as he poked the cake on his dessert

“Big deal Dox. I’m still looking for myself.” Lilly grabbed the apple from his plate and started to eat it.

“Maybe you should ask Scarlet for insight.” he muttered.

“Scarlet doesn’t say anything unless it’s important, plus she never gives a straight answer. Besides it’ll just confuse Grace.” She then smiled. “Oh, did you know? Grace has a boyfriend.”

Paradox growled and sat up. “What?”

“Yes, it’s serious too. I met him; he’s a real gentle pony.”

“What does dad think of him?” Paradox was frowning.

“You know how dad is…” Lilly rolled her eyes.

Paradox lay back. “He terrorized him. Good.”

“Yeah, but no.” Lilly smirked.

Paradox looked at his sister. “Lilly, you are not telling me everything.”

She grinned at him. “I don’t want to. What a better way to get you out of here to talk to some pony else than mom and I.”

“I’m not interested.” He answered. “Besides, no one wants to talk to a monster.”

“I’ll tell you something… I am planning on leaving, I don’t know when or how long I will be gone.”

Paradox looked at her. “Why?”

“I cannot explain it Dox, but I feel like I am drowning at night and I feel like I need to claw through mud to catch my breath. It was like when I was being possessed by that evil entity that broke Celestia.” She gulped. “I don’t like that feeling Dox…”

“That is how I feel everyday Lilly. I need to destroy this feeling though; I don’t know how you can bare it while I feel like it is going to take me over.” Paradox closed his eyes. “Sometimes I let it just wash completely over me and wish it would really drown me, but it doesn’t. I awake the next morning.”

“Don’t drown Dox. I wouldn’t want that to happen to you. I want… no I think I need you to be happy again.” She leaned against him and sighed. “I love you Doxy. You have always been with me. I wish you were well enough to travel with me.”

Paradox sighed and leaned against her. “It is family that keeps me going. I am guessing that I would be lost if it wasn’t for you. I love you too Lilly. I am sorry if I cannot let this feeling go within me.”

"I would be lost if it wasn’t for you."
“I would be lost if it wasn’t for you.”

“I will find a way to make you escape those strange claws of doubt within you.” She muttered as she hugged him. “Eat something Doxy. I’m going to go and talk to Mom and Dad.”

Lilly walked out of her brother’s room and stopped when her guard snapped to attention. She let out a frustrated huff as she walked down the steps of the tower while her guard followed her.

“If you were a Pegasus; we’d already be at my parent’s room.” She muttered to the guard. He didn’t say anything as he walked behind her. He looked around and slowly looked down at her long scaly tail as she carried it slightly up so it wouldn’t drag on the ground. His eyes traveled up her tail to her hips and he felt his face start to burn with a blush; he looked away quickly.

Lilly kept grumbling as she started up the steps to the tower where her parents stayed. “How can I tell them?” She was asking herself. “So do I tell them that I am leaving and that they should not worry about me?”

Zero wanted to say something but he kept quiet as he walked up the stairs behind her, he kept his eyes averted from looking at her rear again though. Professionalism, remember your training, and keep thoughts to yourself.

Zero's View.
Zero’s View.


As they go to the top of the tower Lilly trotted to the doors where two guards were standing. They both put up their wings to block Lilly. “Halt.”

Lilly frowned at the guards. “Seriously? I am their daughter.”

“Lord Discord said they are not to be disturbed.” A large guard muttered to Lilly.

“I’m their daughter!” Lilly growled.

“My Lady?” Zero suddenly spoke up.

Lilly turned and looked at her guard. “What?”

“Maybe, they are doing something… important?” Zero gulped as she stared at him with her crimson eyes.

Lilly looked at the guards at the door, then she turned away her face was suddenly burning as a blush ran over her cheeks. “Oh.” She suddenly extended her wings. “I’m going to fly to my room, if you want to guard it, you’ll have to get there on your own.” She jumped up and flew towards her room in another tower.

Zero let out a deep sigh and hung his head after he looked at the two guards. They both shook their heads at him as he set out at a run to find Lilly’s room on his own.

Zero let out a deep sigh...
Zero let out a deep sigh

Story: Paradox’s Despair – Chapter 11


“Um, I… don’t like how every pony is staring at me.”
“Um, I… don’t like how every pony is staring at me.”

Fluttershy felt so embarrassed sitting on the throne that Discord had fashioned for her. “Um, I… don’t like how every pony is staring at me.”

Discord looked at his wife and smiled. “They are not staring at you, they are admiring your beauty and envious of me who has such a beautiful wife. Eat your hearts out! She is mine!” He rubbed behind her wings as she blushed and tried to make herself look smaller.

“Lord?” The Captain of the guards addressed Discord. “Luna has assigned guards for you and your family. I do hope they meet your approval.” He stepped back and indicated the guards standing behind him at attention.

“Oh?” Discord leaned forward as he looked at the guards. “Which one is my wife’s?”

A young Pegasus stepped forward. “I… I am.” She said nervously.

“Excellent, I approve all of them, whatever Luna thinks would be best for my family so be it.” He grinned and sat back on the throne. “Oh, this is easy Fluttershy.”

Fluttershy just looked terrified on the throne. “C… can I go?”

Discord looked at her in shock. “But we just got here…” He noticed her panicking. “Oh, alright.”

“You.” Discord pointed at the Pegasus. “Take Lady Fluttershy to our room.”

“Thank you.” Fluttershy squeaked to him as her guard went over to her.

“Come on Aunt Fluttershy. I mean… Lady Fluttershy.” The Pegasus said.


Fluttershy looked at the Pegasus better and hazarded a smile. “Little Silver Dash, thank goodness you are someone I know. Aren’t you a little young to be in the guard?”

“Well you know how mom is…” Silver whispered as she walked with Fluttershy out of the throne room.

Fluttershy looked back at Discord as he started to get up and walk around the throne room. “Yes… I do know how Rainbow Dash can be.” She didn’t notice that Lilly had walked into the throne room quietly as the door closed.

The guards went to where they were supposed to go and meet up with their charges. Only one guard left was standing with the Captain. The earth pony guard Zero stood with the Captain as Discord kept changing their uniforms for his amusement. The Captain stood without emotion as Discord snapped his fingers making the guard’s uniform turn into pink tutus, cheerleading outfits, etc.

“Why are you still here?” Discord asked them both as he changed their uniform the color of puce. “I am sure you aren’t here because you want my company.”

“Your daughter told me that she would be here.” The Captain said. “This is her appointed guard.”

Discord looked at Zero and shook his head as he shrugged. “Well, if Lilly says she’ll be here she’ll be here.” He went back to his throne and sat down.

“I don’t need a guard Dad.”
“I don’t need a guard Dad.”

Lilly appeared out of thin air next to the Captain and the earth pony guard. “I am here.” She said calmly then looked at her appointed guard and back at her father. “I don’t need a guard Dad.” She said as she trotted up to Discord and went to sit on Fluttershy’s throne. “I am not a foal; I can take care of myself without a guard tagging along.”

“Lilly, the guards are here to protect us.” Discord sighed as he looked at his daughter.

Zero’s eyes widened as he watched Lilly argue with her father, but then he snapped to attention when he saw her point at him while she argued.

“What makes you think that he can even keep up with me?” Lilly huffed.

“You are not suggesting that you would try to lose the guard?” Discord muttered at her.

“No…” She grumbled, because that is what she was going to try to do the first chance she got. “Can we talk about this in private? I hate having them listen to me.” She waved at the guards. “I have to tell you something important, plus… where is Mom?”

“Your Mom got nervous being here, so I let her leave with her guard.”

Lilly sighed and looked tiredly at her father. “I need to talk to her too. I still don’t need a guard…”

“Too bad LillyRose. I’m going to put my hoof down… You will have a guard.” Discord folded his arms and put his hoof down.

“Fine!” Lilly groused as she stormed past the guard and to the door of the throne room. She looked back at him. “Well?!” She shouted at him.

Zero blinked suddenly when he realized she was talking to him. “Oh, um yes… Lady Chaos.” He trotted after her.

Lilly trotted quickly down the hallway and her mane seemed to spark with electricity as she walked. Zero followed behind her and he didn’t say anything as he heard her grumbling. “All I want to do is help and then I am told to have a guard watching me all the time…” She stopped for a second and turned to look right at Zero. “You! Don’t repeat what I say!” She growled.

“You! Don’t repeat what I say!”
“You! Don’t repeat what I say!”

Zero blinked at her. “Yes Lady Chaos.”

“Good.” She then started to walk again and he followed her.